The only Letter..

kamu..

terbangun dari tidur...yang pertama teringat adalah yosnia qorina zamza...

baca sms mu "ngantuk bgd...tidur y" --aku dah tertidur dan segera membalasnya -- adakah kamu tau? bibit sayang itu dah memiliki akar yang teramat kuat dalam hatiku...

smakin bertambah dan bertambah besar tiap harinya...dan pertambahannya bukan lagi deret hitung,tapi deret ukur yang berkuadrat...

(1 November, 2009)

Thats the only emm what should I call it? poem? or maybe just such a romantic letter ever written by him, my half soul.

the only one! 

since that, he never write any romantic word anymore except I love you..  hehe..

but when I read it again and again I can't stop my tears, since the first time I read it till now..

and you know, how stupid I replied that beautiful words? here..

Mampuuuusss!!

Deret angka kuadrat??? Hm.. Sepertinya saya pernah bermusuhan sama dia! Ha.Ha..

Mz bakti..

Sayang t gampang, Alloh yg akan membolak balikan hati manusia,

yg susah adalah..

Ngitung deret ukur!

Mwahahahahahahaha!!

Puyenk.. Puyenk..

(I November 2009)

See? hahahaa.. how stupid I am..

but, thats just an expression of my salah tingkah *keliatan bgt yee*

huaaah.. sometimes I really miss that time, but now I get more than just words, I get the whole love from him that grow bigger and bigger every single second.. :) 

Surprising February

This is my month! I said that because yess there are much sureprise in this month but, I will tell u the most surprising moment in my life. In my life. My entire life.

I've been married for about 3 mounth, I never thought about having a baby, I just let it flow. Different with my husband, he is very very concerned about pregnancy, he wish for a baby very much. I never takes KB or any way to postponed my pregnancy. But, for my 3 months marriage there is no sign thats shows my pregnancy. I took a pregnancy test almost every month and I always found one strip.

Until this february, I was late for one week late so I decided to use my test pack stock from my cupboard (hehhee.. yess I have some test pack stock on my cupboard) and taraaaaaa... I see two strips!

(picture taken from here)

I don't know how to express what I feel that day. lil bit shock. for a second I think Im too young to have a baby.. but for the next second I think this is miracle. this is the gift from Alloh. MasyaAlloh.. Subhanalloh.. there is a lil cute baby growing in my stomach.. :')

I told that two strips to my husband and see how happy he is, and I send the two strips picture to my mother and he very thankful to Alloh for her first grandchild.

thats an awesome day. 

Sometimes I feel shame to tell my friend about my pregnancy, I dont have any friend that have same experience life as me. I feel different. I feel they won't understand what I need, what I feel, and how my life goes on. This isn't bad being different like this. I feel all this happines earlier than most of my friend. When they still studying, still seeking for a job, still galau with their love, I've passed all of that moment, and being very fast to run my life. Sometimes they make a joke about my life that I think its not funny anymore. Sometimes they being lebayy, and the other that dont know me much show amazed face when they heard what happend in my life. Like I growing old too fast, I dont really like it. 

The other surprise is my job. Now, I start working in Ditjen Bea Cukai, for the first time I was very happy being an employee in Ditjen Bea Cukai, when I visited the central office I was shock watching the BC's people doing military exercise, not only for a man but also woman! the first thing flew in my head is my lovely baby.. How can I do that with my pregnancy. May the management have any wisdom to me not to do that. :)

oiya once more, for my English, CMIIW yaaaa...

why?

when somebody asked me
"what the thing that make you finally believe and make a decision to choose him?"
I thaught a second
but couldnt found the answer at that time..
I don't wanna make a cliche answer like yeaah because I want to or yeaaah because its destiny
I know, Alloh is the one who can turn our heart
but now I know why Alloh give him to me
he teach me alot, about giving, about being grateful, about happiness, about how I can feel Alloh near me, about respecting each other, about everything I dunno before..
yeah, finally I find one reason :)
and I keep seeking the other

*forgive my bad grammar.. I really bad in english, but I learn and I try.. :)

The Masterpiece!

Yess! the masterpiece! thats how me and my husband called the thing I wanna show you.. hahha.. ya sebenernya si gue yang maksa-maksa suami buat bilang ini masterpiece, but, trust me, if you let your tongue taste this lovely thing you will understand why called it like that. Here we come...!!

AYAM KECAP!!
yeah, ini masakan pertamaku untuk suami (eh sebenernya sup jagung si, tapi karena ga enak jadi kunobatkan ayam kecap ini jadi yang peratama deh hihi..)
and here the way to make that masterpiece:
bahan yang dibutuhkan:
ayam aku pake paha atas 3 potong
kecap manis 50ml
kecap manis pedas 50ml (aku pake campur kecap manis dan kecap cabe biar agak pedes2 dikit, tapi kalo ga ada pake aja kecap manis biasa terus di bumbu yang diulek ditambahin cabe rawit 2 buah lah)
air 200ml
bumbu yang dihaluskan:
bawang merah 5 butir
bawang putih 3 butir
merica butiran setengah sendok teh
jahe setengah centimeter aja
garam secukupnya (kira-kira setengah sendok teh)
cara bikinya:
1. semua bumbu yang dihaluskan diulek sampe halus
2. goreng ayam sampe berwarna keemasan, angkat, tiriskan
3. tumis bumbu halus dengan minyak secukupnya sampe berwarna kecoklatan dan harum
4. masukkan ayam yang sudah digoreng tadi
5. tuangkan kecap manis dan kecap pedas
6. masukkan air
7. aduk rata lalu tutup deh wajannya, tunggu sampe bumbu meresap betul, tandanya airnya menyusut dan mengental.
8. udah deh, sajikan :D

ayooo dicoba resepnyaa, gampang banget dan seriously delicious! :)

my lovely life

Im the one who cant show my feeling, and thats happened in my love life too.. I realy bad in express my love, to say how much I love him its my weakness.
we are the very new couple, but he always professionaly  show his love to me, by kiss my cheeks every day, say it in words, hug me when I sleep, treat me like a princess, he did it, but me? hahhaa.. Im the very lempeng woman.
Being a wife is so much fun I feel, by cooking, cleaning the room, waiting him from his office, watching wayang together *yess now Im a wayang addict because of him* every little thing I done was fun, the tiny thing I do like serve a glass of milk every morning are really fun, I dont know what should I express that feeling, fun or lovely or whatever but that was great.
I hope I always hug him in my night sleep forever, I dont want be far from him.. Alloh.. please..

Kitty

Mommy

Daddy


and the kids..

can you see how cute are theeeeyy?

Malu..

Kata tetanggaku minggu yg lalu "kalo udah nyebar undangan rasanya malu loh"

hahhaa... aku cuma ketawa aja waktu itu, aku pikir ihh kan seneng udah bisa nyebar undangan malu gimana..

but, gosh.. can I roll back my tongue?

bener trnyata, setelah beberapa undangan disebar dan ngepost undangan di fb rasanya booook.. beneran malu.. Semalem juga curhat soal ini ke temen dia bilang "malunya kaya orang baru jadian gitu yah? malu apa lagi kalo di cieciee" 

oiya! tul sekali! gitu tuh rasanya, kaya orang baru jadian, mo jalan bdua aja maluuu..

reaksi temen-temen yang beda-beda waktu nrima undangan juga makin bikin prasaan campur aduk, berikut reaksi beberapa temen2 yang dapet undangan:

1. "seriiuuuussss looohh mauu nikah? giilaaa!! ga mungkin! boong!! nekat  banget!! koq bisaaa!!"

2. "Alhamdulillah.. aduuh ikut seneng.. semoga barokah.. semoga sakinah mawadah warohmah"

3. "selamat ya oyyi" (udah) 

4. "ooh, kapan?"

5. "kamu hamil yah?" -__-"

can you imagine how its feel??